Tuesday, 09272022

I have lived 20 months without you,

every day wishing it was just a bad dream.

I want you back, not to put you back into your suffering

but because I knew you’re not suffering anymore.

It’s too painful

to admit you have returned to our Father.

Gone by my side forever.

My motherhood, crippled

My heart, broken

My soul, shattered

And in the deepness of the cold-blooded night

my mind will slap me

ferociously of your absence.

My beautiful Enzo

fierce and messy

loved and worthy.

You filled my days with

sunshine, raindrops, and rainbows.

Why it has to be so short and sweet, my love?