Love letter to my baby

My dear sweet Vito,

You and ahya are our life greatest blessing and we love watching you grow together! But there are things beyond our control... You were separated against our will and it's sad that there will be no more milestones to celebrate together.

I know it is also difficult for you to move on as ahya was been your confidant but you proved me wrong. You have matured. You're no longer the little boy who hides behind my back everytime an adult would say hi to you, nor refused to get up on stage during school presentation. Neither, you sleep with me because you're scared to be alone in your bed nor stay on your seat and watched everyone partying. Instead, you were voted vice president in your class and won the grade level representative in school student council, and served in EC alone (without a senior to guide you). Enzo must be beaming at you up there. And you were too smart to know when I need your hug. You will ask dad to sleep with me not because you're scared but you feel I am lonely and longing for ahya. Thank you for letting mommy cling onto you a little longer.

I know we have different grief journey but I take comfort in the fact that you have a good heart. Although it’s just the three of us now, remember that dad and I will always be there for you, and our only prayer is for you to keep your joyful and loving heart. Let’s continue to be one another’s pillar of strength no matter what the circumstances. There may be times, you felt alone but you're not.. I see you. I really see you. You are a deep thinker with a compassionate heart and wisdom beyond your years. When I speak to you, I no longer see you as a child but the man I hope you will be. At times, anxiety hits me because soon you will make your own choices and I will have little say in them. Soon, you will seek your peers instead of mommy. And I will be missing those huge squeeze hugs and our time spent together. I will always need your love and I will always love you in return... No, even if you will not love me anymore, I will still love you. Nothing will make me unlove you. May you always be happy and be loved wherever life leads you! Love you to infinity and beyond 😘💞

Kisses,

Mom