Kuya's 3rd Year in Heaven

"Very truly I tell you, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy." John 16:20

It was extremely difficult for me when my brother, Anthony, passed away 3 years ago, honestly, I did try to find joy amidst my sorrow. My siblings and I lived in the same town, near our parent's house. We were all very close but Anthony and I had shared more together as he was my confidant, my partner-in-crime, and my friend-enemy. He was the father to my children during the time James worked overseas. My children adored him. While it was so painful to have lost my brother, I think it’s even harder to watch my Mom grieve the loss of her son.

I didn't expect to deal with the same suffering my mom had through when Anthony left us so suddenly. I had different pain when I lost my brother and it was only now I had found the joy from that pain. Indeed, God will not give suffering without purpose nor reward. After the pain is over, there is a profound blessing. Unexpectedly, it outweighs the pain of losing Anthony. We only cry because death is so final here on earth, but I’m so thankful for the hope we have in Christ. Hence, his 3rd year anniversary is a celebration of the fulfillment of God's love and faith. The memories of pain aren't gone but somehow God's plan has revealed that He needed to take my brother ahead of us so my dear Enzo will not be a stranger in heaven. He did not allow my dear son to go to eternity alone. He made sure his uncle-ninong will be there. Again, my brother got my back. He will take my child to Jesus as I could not bring him myself to Him.

Too much pain. Two amazing men passed away by surprise. I miss them very much. But even in the midst of my sorrow, I pray for hope. Hope to find my joy again. It will not be the same when I had Enzo but a new joy from what has remained. Right now, it gives me comfort knowing that Enzo is no longer in pain nor lonely. He is not alone. He is with his uncle-ninong but most importantly they are with the Lord.