Journal Entry

January 28, 2021. I turned on your computer. I don't know what to expect but I got caught up with the saved mp4 on your desktop. I...

It has been a rollercoaster of emotions for me and James: shock, broken, helpless, and confused. But for me, the most overwhelming is...

Feeling beyond helpless, I could feel our dear Lorenzo was very quiet and lonely about something, I didn’t even know about what, much...

Because you’re more than one moment in time. Your love lives

It is not about the quantity of time he lived that holds significance, but the impact he had made.

I felt so much love just to hear other says your name. I thank God for your constant presence knowing you still touch our lives.

I have lived 20 months without you, every day wishing it was just a bad dream. I want you back, not to put you back into your suffering...

A huge part of my grieving is self-blame. My son was more likely me. I remember growing up, I was absorbed in fantasizing and imagining...

My dear James, The day Enzo went back to our Creator, I drifted away but you brought me back. You were my rock during the worst days of...